That Girl

Crying 

I stand facing

the mirror

Suddenly

my insides boil

and burn

With a surge

of hate

the mirror is

cracked

But now there

are hundreds

of her

and the hate

multiplies

I glance

at my bloody fist

still clenched

ready to destroy

that girl

I hate so much

But no matter

how hard

I try to shatter

her image

she just

multiplies

and enrages me more

Finally

I give up

tears streaming

down my face

I fall

to the floor

and cry

until I cannot anymore

From the floor

I cannot see her

but I know

she's there

and I hate her

for still being there

for enduring

when all I want

is to give up

I curl

into a ball

and think back

to whom

I used to be

I remember

everything I was

and hate that girl

for forcing me

to become her

I remember

everything I used to want

when I was little

the dreams

the hopes

the wishes

I was gonna go far

but now

I'm dead

I begin to cry again

it pains me

to think

I am dead

I have become

the girl

I never

wanted to be

Eventually

I stand up

and see that

monstrous girl

looking at me

leering

laughing

The tears are still

flowing

but now

I know

that I can beat

that girl

I leave the bathroom

and for the first time

in months

happiness jumps in

my stomach

All of this

will soon be done

the pain

will disappear

I now know

I must slay

the monster

She will die

soon

It's the only way